Ms. L reminded me of something tonight; that you can’t take care of everyone else if you don’t first make time to take care of yourself. I have a hard time doing that. I had a conversation earlier today with someone about not knowing what to do with myself during the time that my daughter is with her father. I mean I know how to make use of the time when she’s in school because after dropping her off and going to the gym everyone morning (which is probably the only thing that I really do to take care of me) I am only left with a small amount of time before having to get her from school. But when she goes away to her dad’s house and spends the night I am left with all of this time and I don’t know what to do with it.
I mean sure I write and do housework but I don’t really do anything that is solely just for the sake of having fun (or pampering myself). It’s almost like I forgot how to be me. I’m just a mom and a writer. I don’t really know how to be anyone else. It’s programmed in me and I suppose I have to search and find that something that is just for me, just for my benefit, so that I can feel like I’m being taken care of too (and if I have a little fun along the way that’s good too).
For anyone out there is feels so caught up in what they do for a living and being someone’s parent, find a way to take care of you this year. You deserve to feel pampered and you deserve to have fun (fun outside of the kids) too. It’s time to take care of you so that you can be able to better take care of the ones you love around you. Until tomorrow…Try putting yourself first every once and a while.
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