Good intention without the action to back it up is just that, intention. There’s no real follow through involved in the things that you intend to get done, just a lot of wishing you had actually accomplished your task. I had a plan this morning to get all of this work done on a couple of my projects and I even went to the great lengths of bringing my notebooks and my laptop out into the dining room where the T.V. was not on to distract me (I have a T.V. in the living room but the only one who really watches that one is my daughter).
I tore myself away from one distraction only to be plagued with a lot of emotions and thoughts running through my mind about some personal stuff that lead to me calling Ms. L. to talk, thus diverting my attention away from all of the work that I had intended to get done. The conversation that I had was good, don’t get me wrong, and it was something that I needed to talk out with someone (since I can’t really talk them out with the person that I really needed to talk them out with), but it gave me another excuse to use for not getting any writing done.
I suppose that one could say that talking out what was going on in my head did in some way help me get something done. If I hadn’t I would still be sitting here, staring at a blank computer screen with a bunch of unnecessary thoughts running through my mind (that have nothing to do with any project I’m working on), and I would become completely blocked. In addition, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity of writing this particular blog post.
Sometimes what appears as us being unproductive can help us break through those walls that are blocking us from our greatest potential. I guess the good intentions that you don’t always manage to follow through on just might lead to something else that was intended to work out better for you in the long run.
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