I did not wake up in the best of moods this morning. I was in a funk and to be honest I am still in one. I had hoped that the run I did on the treadmill this morning would help but it didn’t. I got some work done on my novel (thank God for that) and I went to the grocery store to shop for some decadent goodies to make me feel better.
However, as I was sitting here contemplating on the reasons for the mood that I am in I started to question myself as to why I was filling up my precious, already over extended time with thoughts of what is making me feel depressed and making me feel inadequate. Why am I giving those negative thoughts so much power? Why am I not taking this mood that I woke up with this morning and throwing myself into any piece of work that I can get my hands on in order to keep my mind focused on what is important and on what matters the most?
I mean sure a piece of pie or ice cream (or both) will make me feel better in the moment but then when they are gone the problem is still there. And so is the work that needed to be done that I just let pile up because I decided to let my mood hold me back. I do get in some really funky moods often and I always let them take over. It’s time that I start learning to take my moods and turn them into a source of productivity instead of a point of being stuck.
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