Shadow of a Doubt

Ever wake up one day and wonder where exactly is your life going?  Why aren’t you any closer to accomplishing your dreams and succeeding at what you want?  Why do you keep listening to that voice inside your head telling you to doubt everything you thought you were good at and to let all your dreams die with that doubt?  There aren’t any easy answers to those questions and sometimes realizing that you haven’t done all that you could do to reach those goals is the nice kick that you need to get yourself back in high gear again.  So many times we let our dreams just die when we’ve become stuck and think that we’ll be in a rut forever.  We settle into a feeling of despair and let our life just sink into the quicksand so deep it’s almost too late to pull it out.  Call it a mid-life crisis or just hitting “rock bottom” but no matter what we choose to call it we can not let it stop us from rescuing our dreams from that doubt.

After realizing that my own worst enemy is my procrastination, lack of patience and of course that reliable self doubt you would think that I would be able to do something about the quicksand that my life seems to be sinking into but it is always harder to fix your own problem with your creativity.  As a writer I find that I doubt my talent and whether or not I can accomplish my goals almost every day and three times a day when those moments of “writer’s block” intervenes and I can’t seem to get anything done.  I have wanted to call it quits with writing so many times and just submit to not being a good writer but I can’t do that.  More importantly I won’t do that.  I’ll admit that I had hoped to have a lot more done by now and that I thought I would at least be on my path to the bestseller’s list but that isn’t how things seem to be going.  I just have to accept that it will take a little bit longer than I would’ve liked it to but it can be done.  That’s not to say that I won’t have those moments of wanting to throw in the towel again but I just have to get past that and keep moving forward. 

A little self doubt isn’t necessarily a bad thing because honestly sometimes doubt is as much a part of the writing process or anything else you might want to do.  Without extending yourself past your comfort zone you would never continue to grow in your endeavors but when the doubt takes over and turns into self-sabotage it then becomes one of the top things on the list of reasons why you don’t succeed.  You have to cast out your doubt with determination.  You have to somehow ignore that voice that’s taking away your confidence and whispering to you telling you that you can’t achieve whatever it is that you want.  You have to have enough faith in yourself and in your talent, whatever it may be, that you can banish that voice of doubt that is allowing your dreams to just slip away and finally get past the point of just being “stuck”.

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Now Available)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

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Announcing My Debut Novel…The Diary: Succession of Lies

Announcing the Release of

The Diary: Succession of Lies

by Jaycee Durant

Dear All,

It has been a long time coming but it’s finally here.  My debut Novel, The Diary: Succession of Lies, is now released online and will be in stores soon so please support me by checking out the information below and clicking on any one of the links to purchase your very own copy.  

Much love and blessings.

What if you discovered that the sins of your mother’s past will forever haunt your future? That finding out the secrets that she took to her grave would turn your life upside down? 

To the rest of the world Corynn Hayes was a brilliant writer and entrepreneur. To Karlee Jones, she was not only a mother but a best friend. Until Corynn’s unexpected death, Karlee thought that she knew everything there was to know about her mother.  Then  Karlee receives her mother’s diary as a farewell gift. The depth of the secrets within those pages end up devastating Karlee, forever changing the memory of her mother and of everything she thought to be true.        

The Diary: Succession of Lies is a novel that exposes the secret life of a mistress. It is a tale of love, lust, loss, and redemption as well as the trials of two generations of women. The Diary takes a new spin on the mistress image, a woman often vilified throughout literature as a harlot and a home wrecker. It tackles several questions. Why does a mistress stay? Is love possible in such a taboo relationship? Is love enough to endure the consequences that come later?   

Jimmetta Carpenter, writing as Jaycee Durant, is the editor of the Free Fall Literary Ezine and Spoken Like a Queen. She also has a volume of poetry, The Art of Love, available at www.lulu.com published under the pseudonym Gemini.

Purchase your very own copy online today by clicking on one of the links below

Hope to get your support.

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 Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Now Available)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

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The Devil Is Busy?

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

                                                                                      -Jeremiah 29:11 

 

It is said that God already knows your path.  He has already planned out your every move, your every mistake, your every accomplishment, and your every moment of success.  We may not always know exactly what his plan is but sometimes it is not for us to know.  Sometimes I believe that he wants to test our faith and make sure that you believe in him and that he will always see you through.  Sometimes those obstacles that we constantly face and can’t seem to get through are none other than the devil at his best.  It goes without saying as diligent as God is in seeing us through our obstacles, the more obstacles the devil creates and the harder they get.  That is when we have to work harder to remain on the path that God has set out for us.  We can’t deviate from the path and we can’t stop in the middle of our path either.  That is something that both I and my best friend are struggling with.  We both have a vision and a goal for our future that we know is meant for us.  A course that we know we are destined to travel on and are never supposed to deviate from.  However, we seem to keep getting these obstacles thrown at us that seem almost impossible and speaking for myself, some obstacles that seem to have me almost crying defeat.  Almost.  I am nothing if not resilient and I don’t think that my resilience is even due to my own strength, but rather to the knowledge of knowing that God would never allow me to go through anything that he didn’t think I could handle.  I want to convey the message to anyone who is going through what seems like a truckload of obstacles and who is allowing themselves to get knocked off course.  If the devil is busy working on you, then you must be doing something right.  Don’t let life knock you down so hard, to the point where you don’t get back up.  Remember that your path has already been laid out and trust that you will soon see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Stick to your vision.  It’s the vision that God gave you.

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Coming in September 2010)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

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The Victorious One?

Have you ever had those moments in life when you know that your goal of success is right around the corner but it seems like everything wants to come crashing down on you all at once first? 

Well it’s been like that for a few weeks now for me and either this means that this is the beginning of my downfall (which I know it’s not) or I can look at it as ‘boy my success must be about to come through in spades’.  I choose to look at it from the positive prospective rather than the negative one because there is enough negative thoughts and vibes being circulated in the world today and I am not going to add to it.  I know in my heart that I am destined to live a great life and even more than that, a successful life full of wealth and riches beyond strictly monetary means. 

I think that the obstacles that I have been going through lately and the hurdles that I have had to literally pole vault over (not just jumping or climbing over) are better preparing me and instilling in me the drive that I need to remain focused so that when I do come out on the other side of these tough times and am firmly placed on top I can remember exactly what I went through to get there and so I know exactly what not to do in order to stay there. 

I will remain focused and steadfast in my goals and no matter how many negative nay-sayers that I come across (be it my own family) in this life I will remember that God has given me this plan in life to fulfill and that aside from myself, he is the only one that I have to make proud and the only one who I have to please.  I don’t mean to get all preachy but the devil is not going to steal my joy and he is not going to win this battle that I am fighting.  The victory will be mine!

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Coming in September 2010)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

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Getting Over The Hurdle

“What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise.”

Often times, things happen to us in our lives that we don’t understand the reasoning for. We go through so many hoops and have to jump over so many hurdles that we sometimes just want to stop dead in our tracks and ask, why. Why is all of this is happening to me? We profess to ourselves and anyone else who will listen that we just can’t take another step because it is all too much. Yet even after making such a statement we continue to take one step at a time and finally manage to make it to our destination. So why do we even waste all of that time being bitter over what obstacles we had to go through?

The trials that we go through in life are so often frowned upon and griped over that we sometimes miss the bigger picture of it all. We don’t want to see these trials as the blessings that they truly are. Instead we let them become our excuses to not do better for ourselves and excuses for not being in the place we feel we should be. That job that you lost, and moped over for six months of your life, could very well be the opportunity that you needed. Had you not lost that job, which you hated to go to anyway, you may have not found that extra motivation to start the business you’ve been longing to start for years. You may have still been stuck in a job that you hated for twenty years, never actually pursuing what your dream really is. The illness that you have just overcome and that you are so depressed over because it took a year off the plans that you were headed towards. Instead of looking at it as a curse that happened to you and that derailed you, try looking at it as a blessing that opened up your eyes. Now that you have overcome that obstacle, you are more aware of just how precious actually living your life is and you can allow yourself to be more motivated to stay on that path to your dreams.

So many dreams die because of a person who stops cold at every single obstacle that appears to get in their way. They are not seeing the obstacle for what it really is; a test of their determination, and their passion. Obstacles are not placed into our lives simply just to get in our way. There is always a reason, and there is always a lesson that is being taught. The challenge is in understanding what the lesson is and figuring out how we can learn from it. If we don’t learn from the obstacles and struggles that plague us, then we are destined to repeat the same struggles over and over again.

 It took a long time for me to realize that it really is true that what ever I go through that doesn’t kill me will in fact only make me stronger. I still do the griping about why this and that is happening to me right after I have just struggled with something else. However, even though I feel that I sometimes can’t make it through those moments that feel like every thing is stacked up against me, I somehow manage to come out on the other side of things in one piece and I can still see my dream right there waiting for me. My obstacles will not become my downfall and they will not be the end of my dreams. At the end of all the struggling, there will be a lesson to be learned and in learning that lesson comes the blessings that you would never have seen had you stopped dead at that hurdle instead of jumping over it.

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Coming September 2010)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

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Update: Debut Novel Coming Out Soon!!!

The Diary: Succession of Lies

Coming Soon 9/7/2010

What if you discovered that the sins of your mother’s past will forever haunt your future? That finding out the secrets she took to her grave would turn your life upside down?

To the rest of the world Corynn Hayes was a brilliant writer and entrepreneur. To Karlee Jones, she was not only a mother but a best friend. Until Corynn’s unexpected death, Karlee thought that she knew everything there was to know about her mother. Then, Karlee receives her mother’s diary as a farewell gift. The depth of the secrets within those pages end up devastating Karlee, forever changing the memory of her mother.

The Diary: Succession of Lies is a novel that exposes the secret life of a mistress. It is a tale of love, lust, loss, and redemption as well as the trials of two generations of women. The Diary takes a new spin on the mistress image, a woman often vilified throughout literature as a harlot and a home wrecker. It tackles several questions. Why does a mistress stay? Is love possible in such a taboo relationship? Is love enough to endure the consequences that come later.

Jimmetta Carpenter, writing as Jaycee Durant, is the editor of the Free Fall Literary Newsletter and Spoken Like a Queen. Her other works include The Art of Love, volume of poetry published under the pseudonym Gemini.

Check back on this link (http://www.passionatewriterpublishing.com/thediary.htm) soon to see when you can pre-order your very own copy.  Hope you give me your support.

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Coming in September 2010)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

www.freefalllit.com

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And the Reviews Are In

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the role that self-confidence plays in any person who has dreams and ambitions. If you are a totally confident person, and I mean confident not only within yourself but also in what you want out of life, then you could end up really seeing everything you want become a reality. But not every one is that confident and I am beginning to realize that one of the main things that could really stop a person dead in their tracks on the way to making their dreams come to fruition is a lack of self-confidence. After all, if you don’t believe in yourself and your dreams then how is anyone else supposed to believe in you?

For those of us who have chosen the career of a writer we not only have to face the reviews and critiques of our peers but what’s truly important is facing the reviews and critiques that we make of ourselves. We spend so much time analyzing and criticizing and literally picking apart our accomplishments to figure out what mistakes we made that we forget to praise ourselves for the accomplishment in itself. This kind of obsessive self-criticism is what tears down our self-confidence eventually making us doubt every decision, every adventure, and every achievement we make leaving us in the position where we never take the risks that will move us forward and are always playing it safe.

Sometimes we project a sense of confidence on the outside to the rest of the world but inside we still hear those little voices telling us how much more we still have to do and how we still have to prove our worth to everyone who’s looking at us. But being confident does not mean proving your worth to anyone else but yourself. I believe that some people think that if they can achieve perfection then they will gain more confidence within themselves but being confident does not in any way mean being perfect. We have to expect less then perfection from ourselves and realize that we all do the best we can in any given moment. Life is abundant and has no shortage of opportunities but if we spend all of our time analyzing and criticizing ourselves, wondering what others will think, then we begin to loose the confidence we need to take the necessary risks we need to take.

Nothing succeeds like confidence and true confidence is in knowing that you are capable of accomplishing anything you want, mistakes and all. It is being able to cope with the disappointments instead of making the setbacks mean something about you. It is letting those setbacks make you more open to what’s next. Having true indestructible confidence within yourself is about owning your dream and saying yes to you. It is taking the bull by the horns and going after what it is you want and making it happen. You may never be 100% satisfied in whatever it is you do. You quite possibly will always be able to find some flaw in what others could very well see as damn near perfect. But if we let our own reviews of ourselves halt our progress then nothing will ever get done and the journey will be over before it can ever begin.

Jimmetta Carpenter

Tips For When Life Knocks You Down

1.  Don’t deny whatever is happening in your life,  It’s not a question of whether or not life is going to hand you a surprise along the way; you will get knocked down.  In a sense you do sometimes have to “fake it until you make it” but don’t fake it so much that you deny what the reality of the situation is.  Facing whatever is really going on is the best step to overcoming it. 

2.  Be honest with yourself about how you got knocked down.  Don’t try to find several reasons or someone else to blame for the position you are in.  When you are honest about what brought you to the place you’re in it makes it a lot easier to pick yourself back up.  Remember that when you are living through excuses, you are designing your life to repeat your wrongs.

3.  Don’t be afraid to ask the right people for help.  The key is asking the “right people.”  When you get knocked down don’t look around you for help; look up and see those who are standing emotionally taller than you.  Reach to them for help.

4.  It is critical for you to find the lesson that goes with the fall.  If you don’t find the lesson, you are bound to repeat the event until you do.  When you are willing to face with honesty what has happened then you will see the reason for the fall and contained within that understanding is the lesson.  When the lesson has been found getting up will be easier.

Dare to Dream

What we dream for our future is important.  If you fail to dream no harm will be done, but then again, you really never know what you, or the world might miss if you don’t.  I think that I have always had something that I dreamt I could be.  From the time when I was in elementary school and had to share with the class my speech on what I wanted to be when I grew up to the time when I was grown up and realized that my dreams had changed and evolved.  I was always told that my dreams were “bigger than me” and that I should shoot for something that’s “within my reach.”  I never really paid attention to that, or so I thought, but over the years I’ve realized that somehow I had began to believe that to be true.  I started to feel that what I wanted for my future was over-the-top and far too extravagant.  But what’s wrong with going past what we first imagined could be possible?  What’s wrong with not being afraid to step outside of our box of normal and concise to see the bigger picture?  Is there really anything wrong with having dreams that are larger than life?

We hurt ourselves not by what we ask for, but by what we settle for.  So many of us out there with goals and dreams that are larger than life are working hard and just settling for whatever gets them by.  The question that I am plagued with is why is it that we just settle for ‘good enough’ instead of striving for ‘more than we could possibly imagine’?  The only dreams that are even worth dreaming are those that are far greater than the life we lead.  I believe that our goals in life are really just our dreams with deadlines.  We set them and than we attain them but who says we have to stop and just settle.  We have to realize that just because we dream something that to someone else seems too over-the-top doesn’t mean that it can’t be achieved?  Why do we have to settle with the smaller dreams instead of shooting for what’s beyond our reach?

If you are going to dream, you should never be afraid to dream big because the dreams that are worthy are the dreams that challenge our limits.  Why not dream the impossible and just believe that you are just the person capable enough to make those dreams a reality.  Our dreams are only as distant as we make them.  If we just reach out and grab them they are right there for the taking.  There’s nothing wrong with having ambitions that supercede our expectations for ourselves as long as we put some action behind them and don’t just let them remain a dream that might or might not come true.  That’s not to say that we shouldn’t enjoy the simple things in life that we already have and that we shouldn’t treasure every blessing that comes our way.  But if we stop there, at the point of contentment, than we’re just settling and not going beyond the treasures that we are capable of grasping.  The real question that we really need to ask ourselves is not are our dreams small enough to be attained, it’s are we really dreaming big enough?   

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Release Date TBA)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

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Sink or Swim?

It’s easy not to see the urgency of a situation when you have a safety net to fall into that will allow you to continually put off or not put much effort into your true calling.  However, when that safety net is stripped away from you with no back up plan and no visible light at the end of the tunnel it forces you to think about what you were really put here to do and why on earth aren’t you doing it.  Sometimes you think you are doing everything you possibly can when in reality, without that plan B, you find that your efforts could have been grander and more fierce.

I always thought that I had been doing enough in my efforts to really jump start my writing career.  I now realize, just as my safety net is being ripped away from me, that there was so much more I could have been doing, and still so much more left for me to do.  I can not for the life of me think of a good reason as to why I wasn’t putting this much fierceness and vigor into making my business thrive before now.  Maybe it was that I was too afraid of it not working.  Maybe what I was really afraid of was the actual success that I know I am entitled to.  Whatever the reason, it’s just not a good enough one.  I have wasted far too much time being under-productive and relying on that safety net that I thought was a sure thing.  I can not dwell on what I can not change but I can change how I do things from here on out.

We sometimes tend to think about everything with that safety net in the back of our minds, thinking that it is always going to be there and that if all else fails, at least we still have that.  Until you don’t.  Without that extra security we are not only forced to jump in the deep end of the pool with blind faith, but we are forced to make ourselves swim to the surface before we drown.  In this world today it is strictly about those that can swim and those that sink.  There is no middle ground.  Being able to tread water and just stay afloat is not enough to make it.  It’s only enough to get by and really how long can we go on just getting by.  We can ask ourselves all different kinds of questions to try and figure out why things in our lives are the way they are or how did they get that way but those questions are irrelevant.  The only question that you need to answer is when you have that safety net pulled from underneath you, are you going to be able to swim or will you inevitably sink?  I don’t plan on drowning when I let go, how about you?

Jimmetta Carpenter

Writer/Editor

The Diary: Succession of Lies (Release Date TBA)

Writing as “Jaycee Durant”

www.freefalllit.com

http://unpleasantlyplump.wordpress.com/

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http://spokenlikeaqueen.blogspot.com/

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