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I saw a message of motivation on social media over the weekend. It essentially pointed out that whatever it is that you are holding yourself back from doing because you’re afraid you won’t do it perfectly, someone else is already doing the same thing, and not only are they doing it incorrectly, but they’re okay with it not being done right. They are making a viable income off of it, not necessarily because it’s a good product but rather that they are confident in their mediocrity. In the end it said that you should believe in your own excellence as much as other people tend to believe in their mediocrity and it really spoke to me. Then the message my Pastor spoke about this past Sunday was on anxiety and that too felt like it was aimed directly at me.

I’ve been doing fairly well managing my anxiety levels over the course of this past year, odd given the current state of the world in which everyone’s anxiety levels are understandably up. My anxiety has peeked once again over the last couple of weeks but not because of the health crisis going on right now but rather because of the goals I didn’t achieve in the year 2020 and the goals that I am setting in the coming year of 2021 and some of it is because I have held back on doing things because I feel like I’m not going to do it “perfect” enough.

I have been letting my anxiety get in the way of quite a few things in the last few weeks and it’s a struggle to tell those negative voices in my mind to shut up. I don’t know if someone will do it better or even do it at all. I’m holding back on things that I’ve wanted to do for a long time now based on what ifs and that doesn’t get me anywhere. I have to stop holding myself back from doing things because of what I feel someone else can do better because the truth is I don’t know that and the only thing I can really control is putting all of my cards on the table and letting them fall wherever they may. Until next time… #BeInspired #BeMotivated #BeFearless

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I have been working on my spiritual growth for the last few years now, trying to get more rooted in relying on God’s word and not worrying about things that I have no control over. This journey has not been an easy one, particularly because it is my innate instinct that when things go wrong I worry and panic relentlessly, almost bringing about additional health issues that are caused by the stress of worrying. One of the main things that I truly agonize about is what I am going to leave behind in this world as my legacy (aside from my daughter of course) because I just want to do good for other people. The problem is that I have been going through so many of my own struggles recently and I still haven’t gotten back on track and it’s so frustrating. It bothers me that I am still not in the position that I need to be in to be able to help other people.

Then I gained a new perspective on the struggles that I am going through and it clicked with a message my pastor has been preaching on lately. The gist of the message is that the struggles we sometimes go through are oftentimes God’s way of working on what needs to be fixed or repaired within us in order to get us ready to be used for the purpose that he has for us. Whatever I am going through is going to prepare me and strengthen me for the next level that God is getting ready for me to walk into. There is so much that I want to do in this world, not just for my child and the children I know but for other people’s children, for people less fortunate, for people in need of help that get overlooked so often.

I want to take some of the struggles that I’ve had over the last couple of years and help others with those same struggles but I have to first finish preparing myself to do that. So in seeing these struggles in a new light, as preparation, it makes me take a look specifically at the lessons to be gained from them and what each issue has to teach me. I don’t believe that God would allow me to go through anything that I can’t handle and armed with his guidance and his word I will get through these struggles and I will get myself into a firm position so that I can fulfill the purpose that I am here for which is helping others using my creative gifts. What lessons have your past struggles been able to teach you? Until next time… #BeOpen #BePrepared #BeinFaith