“I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is there anything too hard for me?”
I know this may not be a question many of you out there ever feel the need to ask, nor is it one that I ask too often, but I have asked this question. I have had times that were just so dark (at least it seemed so at the time) and made me fall into such a deep depression and I just thought there was no way to overcome it. I had people tell me to give my burdens to God but somehow I always felt like what I was going through was too much for him to handle.
I joke now to my best friend Ms. L that sometimes I think I ask God for too much and that he may be tired of me coming to him with such little problems. She always told me that there was no such thing. I know that (in my heart) that is true now but there was a time when I really wondered if my requests were too much of a burden on God. I thought to myself that he has sick people to heal, wars to end, homeless people to help, hungry people to feed, there’s no way that he would have time to deal with my petty problems (even though they seemed like the end of the world to me) because there were people more important than me. Ms. L made me understand one day that I was just as important to God as anyone else in this world because he created a purpose for all of us and that there was no problem to great for him.
A lot of times I don’t ask God for help, not because I don’t need it, but because I feel someone else might need him more. I still sometimes feel selfish to think that my minor problems are worthy of pulling God’s attention away from those that really need him. I have to remind myself that I am just as important as anyone else and that he not only can hear their cries for help but that he hears my cries too. I’m not going to lie and say that I am never going to have that question again but I will continue to remind myself of what Ms. L and so many others have told me when I asked aren’t there some things that are just too much for God; that there is nothing that is ever too powerful, too hard, or too small for God to handle. For God nothing is impossible.
The Diary: Succession of Lies (Now Available)
Writing as “Jaycee Durant”