A Chance Meeting With a Message for Me About Rejection

“A rejection is nothing more than a necessary step in the pursuit of success.”

~Bo Bennett 

I met someone at the Starbucks today as I sat down to the blank page of my computer screen wondering what I was going to write this post about today.  She is a fellow author and I saw her come in with her box of books of her debut novel, Murder by Ice.  She walked right up to the cashier at the counter and after ordering her coffee asked if she could sell her books here.  I thought to myself ‘she’s not even afraid that they’ll say no, why aren’t I like that.’  She sat at the table where I was sitting as she waited for the cashier to talk to the manager and get a response back to her and we began talking.  

I asked her how she gets up the nerve to do that.  I promptly began to explain how hard it was for me to just get out and talk to people to get them to buy my book as I handed her the postcard for my novel, The Diary: Succession of Lies.  I know funny right.  I’m talking about how hard it is for me to promote myself and my book as I am whipping out the postcard for my book (I didn’t even realize what I was doing while I was doing it).  She asked where my book was but it just so happened that I left the box of books at home and she immediately got on me.  I explained that sometimes I just don’t feel like anyone’s going to buy it so I just don’t bring it with me.    

We talked for over an hour about many different things and she asked me why I found it so easy to show my card about my book to her but can’t go out and do the same with other people.  I told her that it was easy to do that with people who I knew were writers as well.  Writers know the painstaking efforts we each go through, not just to write the book but to get it edited and published and selling.  I told her that with other writers I feel less of a chance of getting rejected.  

She said to me in essence that rejection comes with the territory of being a writer (which I am all too familiar with) but also that just because someone doesn’t buy my book right then and there that it is not necessarily rejection.  Sometimes just their knowing about your book and the story it tells may make them think about it and go buy it later.  However, if I never tell anyone then no one ever goes back to buy it later.  

Rejection is just so scary and it, at times, makes you feel like you are not good enough.  It can make you doubt yourself.  I mean obviously I know that everyone is not going to always like what I write or publish it but it still stings a little (a lot actually).  Well as it turns out this lady that I ran into, I already knew her.  There we were talking like strangers and then realizing that I used to hang out with her daughter and that I already knew her.  It was wonderful to run into her because I hadn’t seen her in so long (since I was still a teenager).  

We both realized that there was a reason for both of us coming to this particular Starbucks on this particular day because I started not to go there today but in many ways something was drawing me there.  Now I know that it was to run into this wonderfully, courageous, woman, who at the age of 50 (hope she wouldn’t mind me saying her age) has the nerve and fearlessness of getting out there and promoting herself and her book (her baby as she called it) and for me to be inspired by her actions.    

In just the short time that I talked to her today she reminded me that rejection is nothing to be afraid of and that that fear could even make me better and work harder to accomplish what I want (and need) to get done.  She said to me that we writers are pioneers of inspiration and reminded me that our stories and experiences are meant to be shared with others.  

Even if everyone doesn’t get something out of your shared experiences, there’s always that one person that will.  That one person will be inspired, or motivated, and take your words as lessons and advice for the steps that they take moving forward.  You will be their chance meeting with a message that they never knew they were going to receive.               

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Cutting the Ties of Negativity That Keep Me Bound

“One of the things I learned the hard way was that it doesn’t pay to get discouraged.  Keeping busy and making optimism a way of life can restore your faith in yourself.”

~Lucille Ball 

It is important when being a writer, in business for yourself, that you have adequate support around you.  People reassuring you that you will be successful and that actually believe the encouragement that they are giving you.  People that you can bounce ideas off of and they get how your mind works and don’t automatically assume that you are crazy.  People that don’t tear you down every chance that they get.  

I think that I have built up a good circle of people who believe in my vision and what my purpose is.  It may be a very small circle but it is there.  The problem that I continue to come up against is the people, or person in particular, who continues to tear me down with every open shot they get. 

Now I know that I am supposed to cut any negative form of energy that enters into my circle and threatens my belief in myself but family is a little harder to get rid of.  Every time I get to a place where I feel confident in what I am doing and I begin to stop doubting myself (at least not on an everyday basis) this person says such negative, nasty, unsupportive things.  Sometimes they just say things that are downright hateful.  

I asked someone once how you are supposed to extract that negative energy from your life and your circle when they are family and you have to deal with them on a regular basis.  This person told me that just because that person is your family doesn’t mean that they necessarily deserve to be treated the way people normally would treat their family.  He said that if they are not living up to the title and are not giving me that emotional support that family is supposed to give one another then they are family in title only but not in their actions.  

I never thought of it that way and even though I try to keep this in mind, every time I have to deal with this person (which is often because my daughter is very close to them) the negativity is just there and sometimes it seeps in my subconscious whether I want it to or not.  Last night the negativity seeped in for a little while but for a writer there is typically a battle to keep out the voices of doubt, whether it is your voice or the voice of others.  

I didn’t necessarily win the time and productivity battle today but every day won’t be perfect and you have to just take the good with the bad.  Tomorrow will be a better day, one where I will avoid all said persons projecting negativity my way.  

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Getting Back in the Swing of Things

I am not full of thought provoking and inspirational quotes and phrases to say today but I really wanted to make sure that I posted.  I am starting to feel my drive kick back into gear, on some days I would even say high gear.   

I am having more and more productive moments and planning out several projects that I want to work on.  I am finally sending out query letters (although they are not perfect) and I am even beginning to work on my novel again, little by little (every little bit counts).  

I am happy to be gaining momentum on the dreams I have been continuously chasing since I was younger.  I have been trying to keep a positive frame of mind as well as keeping my eyes on the goals that I have set for myself.  

I think if I take my eyes off of those goals I’ll start to slip back into the land of un-productivity once again.  So far this week I am winning the battle of time and I plan to keep it that way. 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Being Broken Down To Be Blessed On the Way Back Up

“God never intended for you to go through something and get nothing out of it.”

~Bishop T.D. Jakes 

Sometimes I have days where I feel encouraged and empowered.  My writing flows, my productivity is better then average and I feel like I am going to get to my destination.  Then there are other days when my writing is not going as smoothly, there is no productivity and my destination seems further and further away.  Those are the days that I just feel broken down.  I try to think of the wise people who tell me that it’s not going to always be that way but the message never came across to me as clear as it did the other night when I was watching Oprah’s Next Chapter where she did a sit down interview with Bishop T.D. Jakes.  

Now anyone who knows me well enough (either personally or through this blog) knows that I am spiritual but I am not necessarily terribly religious.  Meaning I don’t necessarily believe that I have to go to a building (i.e. church) to get the word that God is trying to communicate to me.  But every once and a while I will see and hear a Pastor, Preacher, or in this case Bishop say something on television that will make me wish that their church was within my reach so that I could go get that message in person.  

On Oprah’s Next Chapter when Bishop T.D. Jakes told his congregation that “The blessing is in the breaking; that, which refuses to be broken refuses to be blessed; It is the breaking of life that produces the blessing of life.” I felt as if that message was meant for me.  Now I know I wasn’t even there, and this was after all a repeat on TV so it wasn’t even live, but yet I felt like I was directed to watch it for a specific reason; because it’s what I needed to hear.  

I always see my breaking points as my own little personal failures but I suppose the truth is that they are the foundations for my future successes.  They are the models of what I need to look at so that I know not to repeat the same process that got me to that point in the first place.  They are lessons for me to learn from, not mistakes for me to forever regret.  

Bishop T.D. Jakes also said “The most blessed people I have ever met in my life have gone through something that broke them.”  In essence, adversity breeds success and a multitude of blessings.  If you look at the most successful people, they didn’t get to that place without having to be broken down at some point in their lives.  Why should I be any different?  Why should I expect to get to the level of success I know I am destined for without having to go through the trials and tribulations to get there?  

The words I heard him speaking were so powerful and so profound and while I realize this is not the first time I have heard that message, this is the first time I have believed the words as I said them to myself.  Building up any business that you want to have takes a certain amount of tenacity and drive.  However, when it comes to building up a business that is centered around your love of writing and your sense of purpose, it takes guts, and courage, but most importantly belief in yourself and in the very words that you speak.  The words you say are very important and you never know who your particular message might touch, giving them the strength to not stay broken so that they won’t miss their blessings.    

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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A Lesson in Life that Skating Reminded Me Of

Today I took my daughter skating.  I thought it was a good way to end her spring break and I thought it would be good fun for her.  I hadn’t intended on skating as well, I just wanted to sit on the sidelines and watch her hold onto the wall as she made her way around.  Just as she did the last time I took her skating, which was two years ago for her birthday, she asked me to skate with her.  I told her no because truth be told my knee was really bothering me.  I sent her out into the rink and watched her take about five minutes (maybe more) to make her way around the first time.  

After her first trip around she came to me and said she wanted to go home, that it was harder then she remembered.  I reminded her that we don’t quit on things just because they seem hard at first and that the only way to get good at anything was to keep going back out there and trying.  I assured her that she would get better at it just like she did the first time we went skating and the time she went skating with her class at school.  It inspired me to go get a pair of rental skates myself (I hate putting my feet where others have been) and make my attempt to skate with her, as she requested.  

Now I used to be a really good skater back in my teenage years but other than the attempt I made two years ago I haven’t really skated and with all of the aches and pains settling in within my body I get nervous at the thought of skating (or at least the part where I fall).  I was truly terrified to get out there on the floor of that skating rink but I did it and pretty soon I was even able to let go of the wall, at least some of the time.  

I believe that seeing me get out there and not giving up even inspired my daughter to let go of the wall a few times herself.  I even noticed her gathering speed a couple of times, but she didn’t want to quit anymore.  In fact when it came time to leave she didn’t want to go.  I made a promise to her that we would go skating more often now.  I had actually started to have fun myself and I forgot just how much fun skating was.  

The thing about skating that I can relate to real life experiences sometimes is that it has a lot to do with being resilient.  With skating, especially if you haven’t done it in a long time, there is always a good chance that you will fall (in fact unless you are a pro it’s kind of expected), but you don’t have a choice but to get back up again.  You can’t just sit there and give up because you have to, at the very least, get back up if you want to get out the skating rink.  

Much like skating, in life when something or someone knocks you down, maybe even literally knocking the wind out of you, you have to get back up.  More importantly, you have to realize that you are going to fall many time but you have to keep getting back up again.  It’s amazing that I got all of that out of skating but sometimes it’s the little things that you underestimate that have some of the biggest lessons for you to learn from.  I can’t wait to get good at skating again and to help my daughter get to that point where she can let go of the wall and go it alone.  Won’t that be something?  

By the way I did, in fact, fall, but I got back up and skated around a few more times.  It was so much fun! 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Banishing the Age Old Excuse

“Dreams are renewable.  No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.”

~Dale E. Turner 

This morning as I was watching the news they started talking about baseball (which is my least favorite sport, next to golf) and I started to go into my usual mode whenever I heard baseball mentioned, ignore mode.  But this time something caught my attention, enough to actually make me sit and listen.  

They were discussing the oldest major league pitcher to have ever played baseball.  Jamie Moyer is a 49 year old pitcher who is now playing with the Colorado Rockies after suffering an elbow injury in 2010 that caused him to lose an entire season of playtime.  The injury required him to have reconstructive surgery (Tommy John Surgery) with an estimated recovery time of at least a year.  

The word throughout the sports world was that his career was most likely over because this was not his first injury.  However, Jamie Moyer had other things in mind then letting go of his career, although his career has already surpassed many of the people he came into the league with and he was now playing with men of the next generation of baseball.  

All he wanted was the chance to prove to all of the people who said he was too old or that he didn’t throw hard enough anymore that he could in fact do this once again.  They gave him his chance and he proved them wrong and now he could potentially be making history as the oldest major league baseball pitcher to ever win a game.  

It got me to thinking about all of the times that I doubted continuing my efforts as a writer because I was starting to feel as though maybe I was getting too old to be starting out in this career.  I mean in my mind I should’ve already done so many great things within my career by now and I have, instead, been stuck going around in circles.  Watching that story on the news this morning taught me something.  The age factor is only in my mind, not anyone else’s.  

Jamie Moyer commented that “as long as you have an opportunity you can succeed, but you have to be willing to put the time and the effort into it.”  Essentially as long as the opportunities keep presenting themselves to me, I don’t have a reason (or rather an excuse) to not go after them.  

People often tell me that I waste a lot of time watching TV and watching the news, but I never listen to that because I know what I get out of it.  I get inspiration and I get motivated.  I hear other people’s stories and experiences and I receive the wisdom and lessons that they try to impart to those that are watching and listening.  

Today, just in those five minutes that I watched that news piece I saw someone who wouldn’t let people tell him he was too old to continue on with his dream.  I saw someone who didn’t use his age as an excuse to just give up.  I heard something that motivated me to give up my last excuse for not going after every single opportunity that comes my way, especially the ones that are a pathway to my dreams.  

I will only be too old when I can’t write anymore and my fingers can’t translate the words from my mind onto paper (or computer screen).  As long as I have ideas in my head and the ability to convey them, I will never be too old.  Hell even in my senior years (I mean really old-80’s old), I can still dictate my thoughts into a tape recorder and (if the arthritis has really set in) have someone else type up my work.  Age really is just a number, not a dream killer! 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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The No Matter What of It All

“No matter who you are, no matter what you did, no matter where you’ve come from, you can always change, become a better version of yourself.”

~Madonna  

This week I have actually been really productive, or at least more productive then I’ve been in a really long time.  I am starting to feel that drive again to get what I need done no matter what.  I heard a celebrity say once that those three words were words that drove her to the level of success that she had reached.  She said that if she always told herself ‘no matter what’ the job or task had to get done then she would be driven to do it.  It may not be done perfectly or maybe not even in its entirety, but it will get done.  I’ve been thinking a lot about those three words and this week that is what I have had in my mind.  Instead of trying to make everything perfect and get every single thing done, I have just been content on getting whatever I could get done, no matter what.  

I was talking to Ms. L. last night and I told her about the submission that I finally sent off to a magazine.  It sounds like something that you would think I had been doing on a regular basis by this point but sadly it was not.  I have spent months agonizing over whether editors will like my article ideas, whether my writing was really as good as I thought it was that they would even pay attention to a query from me, but mostly I had been trying to figure out how to write the PERFECT query letter.  I have stacks and stacks of books (and internet research) on how to write a perfect (or irresistible) query but none of them seemed to help me.  I had sworn that I would not send out a query until I got the query letters just right.  The problem with that theory was that none of my query letters were coming out perfectly, so of course nothing was being sent off.  

This week I said that I was just going to start sending query letters, even if they weren’t perfect, even if they weren’t even close to being right, because if I don’t send anything out then obviously no one will see my work and I will never see my byline in any national magazine.  So I did.  I sent a submission, and it was indeed imperfect, but it also indeed felt really good.  The thing is that I can’t promise that the queries will be perfect, but I imagine that with more practice in sending them out on a more consistent basis, they will get better.  

I also told Ms. L. that I was going to work on my latest novel that I have yet to finish because I honestly haven’t touched it since the end of National Novel Writing Month (I’m not sure why I haven’t).  I said that even if I didn’t write much on it that I would at least work on it for half an hour, no matter what.  I in fact did work on my novel, and though I did not write much on it, I did write for a half an hour.  I plan on working on it tonight as well.  

I am finding that this week is turning out to do for me exactly what I wanted it to do for me (at least on the writing level) which is re-light that fire under me to get moving and put all my plans in motion.  I think now that I have really started to visualize my dreams I can begin to see them as my reality.  It’s helping me put some action into all of the planning that I have been doing.  It feels really good to feel that fire starting to burn again.  I just hope it doesn’t go out again anytime soon.  I’ve got too much lost time to make up for.  But I will get the job done, No Matter What!     

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Visualizing You Are Already Where You Want To Be

“Attract what you want by assuming the feeling of the wish fulfilled.”

~Neville Goddard 

I was watching Dr. Wayne Dyer on PBS last night and his program, Wishes Fulfilled.  I got a lot out of the three hour motivational program (and dvr’d it so that I can go back and get more out of it later).  He said things that I in some ways already knew and realized but sometimes hearing them from someone else, from another perspective, changes the way you receive the information.  When his program opens he has a statement on the projector screen for the viewing audience that states “If you would like to accomplish something, you must first expect it of yourself.”  Makes sense right?  

I know that if you succumb to the negativity that builds up around you, you are going to eventually project that same negativity into every facet of your life.  This week is about me getting my fire back that I once had and somehow lost.  It’s also about getting back to that person who didn’t always let the negativity surrounding her overtake her.  It’s about getting rid of that mentality of being so fearful of everything that she never enjoys what good could be happening in the present moment. 

I thought that I would be in a certain place at this point of my life and because I’m not there yet I’m doubting every decision I make, every decision I don’t make, every opportunity that I take, and especially the ones that I don’t take.  People always say to go with your gut when making crucial life decisions, but lately I’ve realized that my gut instincts aren’t what they once were because of that damn fear.  It’s keeping me from seeing myself in the state that I want to be in and I know that if I don’t begin to see myself in that place, I might never get to that place.  

Dr. Wayne Dyer said that people who say that they will believe something when they see it have it all wrong.  He said that you will only see it when you believe it, and he’s right.  I mean after all, if you can’t believe in and see it for yourself then how is anyone else going to be able to see it?  

So instead of continuing to wish that I was more of a success, and agonizing over why I’m not, I need to act as if I am at the level of success that I want to be at.  I should imagine that I am already in that place where my company is not only up and running, but it’s going strong.  I can see it now!  

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Have You Danced With Your Fears Yet?

“Let fear be a counselor and not a jailer.”

~Anthony Robbins 

I know that I seem to talk about fear on this blog a lot but I feel that it is so prevalent right now and fear can be so paralyzing when you have no outlet for it.  This is my outlet.  

I realized last night that I am so much more crippled by fear then I could see.  I was watching Oprah’s life class last night on her network and she just so happened to be talking about living fearlessly.  Her guest, motivational speaker Tony Robbins, talked about dancing with your fear (facing them) and that fear is really about changing your story and your state of mind.  

He talked about everyone having a story that they keep telling themselves, whether it is that you are worthless or that you are just always going to fail or many other negative things we tell ourselves.  He recited a quote that if you tell yourself a lie enough times then you start to believe it, so if your story that you’ve been telling yourself for years is that you are never going to succeed or be anything, eventually you will begin to actually believe it.  His theory is that if you change your story, make it more of an affirmation of what you are going to do and who you are going to be, then you change your state of mind and you will begin to believe it.  

Oprah posed the question to her audience and those watching at home, “what is the story you’ve been telling yourself all these years?”  I thought about it and when I talked to Ms. L. I realized what it was.  Not only am I afraid that if I try to really accomplish my dreams it is just going to eventually fail, but I am also afraid of the other end of the spectrum.  That I will actually succeed and begin to make that climb up the ladder and that I might do one little thing to mess it all up and end up right back where I started, at the bottom.  I’m afraid of the not knowing and of the changes that will come.  I’m afraid that I will prove to all of the people who said I would never be anything, that they were right.  

Tony Robbins also said something else that rung true to me after he said it.  He stated that sometimes we want those fears because it protects us from having to step into the unknown.  I was never a completely fearless person, I always tended to be moderately cautious, but I never used to be that person that was so intensely afraid of change and all of the unknown things that are out there that I would sabotage my own self but somehow I have become that person.  

So how do I get back to that person who not only accepted change, but welcomed it?  How do I become that brave artist again that didn’t care (at least as far as my writing went) about what anyone had to say?  

I suppose that “dancing with my fear” is a start.  If I don’t face them head on and stop pretending that they do indeed exist then I am never going to remove those fears from my subconscious and my life.  Fear can really be crippling and it can have the power to kill your dreams, if you let it.  But I’m not going to let it.  Thank you for letting me express my fears here to all of you.  Knowing I can be vulnerable here helps a lot in the furthering of my dreams.   

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Even an Icon Like Oprah Can Have Fear

“The thing you fear most has no power. Your fear of it is what has the power. Facing the truth really will set you free.”

~Oprah Winfrey 

This morning Oprah was on the CBS This Morning show and she was promoting her network, OWN.  She talked about a lot of different things but one thing that struck me was when she admitted that if she knew then (when starting the network) what she knows now she probably wouldn’t have done it (or at least not at the time that she did it).  She acknowledged that when she launched her network she was not ready.  In fact that was one of the lessons that she took away from her process of starting the network, that you shouldn’t launch something just because you already gave a date to everyone else if you are not ready to.  

That was both shocking and admirable to me and just made me want to model my business sense (that I am still trying to mold) after the road she has already paved for the women coming after her even more.  She spoke of the critics in the press who have criticized her brave but somewhat dismal start to her cable network, and one headline, “Oprah not quite standing on her OWN”, that she tries not to let dictate whether she is in fact succeeding or failing at her new endeavor.  In her words, “it’s just press”.  She said that because you fail at something (which her network is in no way failing) doesn’t mean that you are a failure.  

It made me start to think about that good old fear of failure that I can’t seem to shake for the life of me.  Why am I so afraid to fail?  It’s not as if my failing at any given thing would mean that it’s the end of the road for me and my dreams.  In my heart I know this but my head (or perhaps that little devilish angel sitting on my shoulder) keeps telling me that if I fail even one more time at something then that’s it, I’m just destined to be a failure.  If only I could shake that demon trying to creep its way into my subconscious every time I think I’m going to get somewhere.  But maybe that’s just it.  Maybe it creeps in because I am getting somewhere.  

My best friend, Ms. L. always says that when everything starts to begin to go wrong that she knows she must be doing something right.  She says that it just means that the devil is working overtime to stop the progress she is making.  And look at Ms. L., she just launched her magazine, PIEhole (of which I have an article in) and it’s taken off better than I think even she expected it to (although I knew it would).  Although she never acknowledged being afraid as often as she probably was, she never let that fear stop her.  

Hell, if Oprah can have the courage to admit that she was afraid of something (because it seems that she just does this stuff so fearlessly) but that she pressed on anyway, then why couldn’t that be my story down the line as well?  I know that I would never want to be doing anything else and I truly feel as though God instilled in me this specific purpose and I owe it to him, if not myself, to see that purpose through.  As Oprah also said in her interview, “There’s never going to be a time to quit.  I will die in the midst of doing what I love to do and that is using my voice and using my life to try to inspire other people to live the best of theirs.” 

 

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